On Wednesday morning I was on my laptop messing around with my websites when I heard a loud crack followed by the sound my computer makes when it gets unplugged. My AC adapter overheated & stopped working… possibly a sign I use my laptop waaaay too much haha. I really thought I was going to have to go a long time without my laptop (as the battery runs out within a few minutes). However, I managed to get a cheap replacement from eBay & it was delivered today, so all is good again!
I forced myself to go clothes shopping today, since it’s not long until I go on holiday & I have absolutely nothing to wear. I don’t think I can really get away with wearing jeans in Florida haha. My mum & I went to an outlet place about half an hour from where I live & I manage to get a pair of shorts & some sandals, but I couldn’t find half the stuff I wanted. I would launch into a rant about clothes aimed at people my age & how much I hate shopping, but I’m tired & you’ve heard it all before ;)
I know the few people who read this blog will roll their eyes at me for this, but I’ve decided to do the 100 things in 1001 days thing. I’m up to about 90 things, I think, so hopefully another site will be up soon. I probably won’t go through with it, I know what I’m like… I like making sites & lists, but when do I ever stick to these things?! I just need to do something vaguely productive - I’m so bored!
I haven’t been up to much since Mike left. I should really be getting on with some background reading for my dissertation/special subject since two of my library books got recalled last week, but it’s irritated me so I’m reluctant to do any. I’ll get some done later I’m sure.
I’ve been quite busy trying to make things better on Soul Drift. I’ve just changed the about me page & yesterday I finally got Enthusiast running! It’s taken me about a hundred tries haha. Anyway, Soul Drift now has a Fanlisting Collective! I also rearranged the sidebar to make things easier to find (hopefully!). I think I’m going to work on a few more things today… I re-applied for the Elysian Fields Fanlisting & also applied for the Fu Manchu Fanlisting. I want to convert my Hannah Fury Fanlisting to Enthusiast, but I have no idea how to add all the fans on to it! Do I need to start all over again with it? I’ve been looking all over for an answer… maybe I’m just being thick haha.
I want to do something with my 365 Day Project since it died a horrible death some months ago. I don’t know whether I have the willpower to start it again! Plus my life isn’t all that interesting…
I’ve also been considering hosting people, but I’m not sure if that would be a disaster! Does anyone have any advice on hosting people for free?
I’ve just had a great five days with Mike… I can’t believe how fast it went though. I miss him already & it’s only been a couple of hours! It just feels really strange when he’s not around, like missing a part of myself. Oh well, I’m hoping to visit him for a long weekend in a couple of weeks & then it won’t be too long until we’re off to Florida! I don’t think it’s quite sunk in yet that I’m going to America haha.
I don’t have a whole lot to say right now. Fatima tagged me to do a book meme, so I’ll post that here :)
1. Hardback or trade paperback or mass market paperback?
It doesn’t really bother me, I kinda go for the cheapest. That’s bad haha.
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I was watching a programme a few nights ago called Rob Brydon’s Identity Crisis. The programme wasn’t as good as I was expecting it to be, but it did make me think about my own identity & what it is to be Welsh.
As you may have gathered, I am quite a pessimistic person & I’ve made it known that I am not a fan of the United Kingdom in general. I’ve also never really been one to be proud of or emphasise my Welsh-ness. I’ve always kind of had the attitude, why be proud of somewhere you were born by luck? Or thought that patriotism could only be a bad thing, often leading to hatred & conflict. My favourite phrase as a teenager was probably, “I am not Welsh or British, I am a person of the world.” & I guess I still feel that way to an extent. Plus, the Welsh are so often the butt of jokes, it’s difficult to be proud of being Welsh haha. I think Rob Brydon felt the same as me in a way, but his ‘journey’ helped him see things in a different way.
Where am I going with this? Well, perhaps I need to re-acquaint myself with my roots. I don’t think I’ll ever be as defensive as some people are about this country, but I think there are a lot of things to like about it. It might be also be nice to take the time to actually look at the history of Wales, as I’ve always avoided it for some reason. I guess when I was younger I perceived it to be boring & went in search of more interesting countries.
Thinking about this might cheer me up a bit… I’m fed up of coming ‘home’ & resenting the place when it has done nothing to hurt me.
“Do not take life too seriously; you will never get out of it alive” ~ Elbert Hubbard
I often take a step back & wonder if I take life too seriously sometimes. As much as I hate to admit it, I am a stressful & uptight person. I worry about pretty much everything there is to worry about. I like to know about current affairs & read the news online several times a day, but this seems to fuel the worry… or anger. I know that most would simply tell me to stop reading the news, but I would really hate not knowing what was going on in the world. Plus, apathetic people bug me.
I don’t know if I should accept this as part of my character, or whether to try & change it. I mean, I’m not serious all the time. I have an extremely silly side & I do laugh a lot, especially when I’m with Mike. If you were a fly on the wall in our house, you would usually see us making stupid jokes, acting like idiots & laughing hysterically. I’m also very silly when I’m with my mum.
Maybe I just need to find a way of relaxing, which I don’t seem to have right now. I don’t really take much time to unwind. I received the yoga DVD today, so I’m hoping that can help me de-stress. I could also do with some books that can help me escape reality, rather than keeping me here! I love reading but I always seem to pick books that are quite heavy-going or that make me think more about issues. I don’t think I’ll stop reading those books all together, but I would like to escape once in a while. Mike has recommended Terry Pratchett books… does anyone have any other recommendations? Or any thoughts on how I could de-stress?
Yesterday has come & gone
There is no looking back
Tomorrow we will smile
The past is just the past
~ Me Without You (My Ruin)
I’ve been thinking a lot these last few days about the past, letting go & forgiveness. Now, I don’t want to delve into this too much because I’ve been over it a hundred times or more with people I know well, & also inside my own head. I’d just like to share some thoughts.
There comes a point after much anger, frustration, and playing the victim where you just have to let it all go. A lot has happened in my life & I have carried a lot of it with me for far too long. I have even talked about bad experiences from years ago with people at University, a place where I thought I could wipe the slate clean & start over.
Why was the past haunting me so much? Because I was letting it. I don’t want to let it get to me anymore. & I don’t want to think about recent events anymore either. It is all over. None of it is part of my current life, so why think or worry about it? I am very happy with life right now & it is definitely time to move on.
As of today I am no longer talking about the bad experiences of the past, it’s time to focus on a great future. I’ve either forgiven people in my past or… I just don’t care enough to think about them any more.
Yes, I think we’ve established that I like to create websites & then delete them soon after. Maybe I’m going for the record number of changes to a website in one year. Or maybe… I’m just strange haha. I’ll try my best to keep this set up going (that is: blog, music blog, personal site & fanlisting) but I can’t make any promises.
The layout is based on a theme I found here (you can read more under credits on the sidebar if you’re interested) & it’s very different to what I usually have up… but I like it a lot at the moment. It’s nice to have a change sometimes (or all the time).
I’m currently back in sunny ol’ Wales & fairly bored. Hopefully Mike will be down sometime next week to keep me company. I’ve been getting organised, though - even attempting a healthy lifestyle! I bought a Yoga for Dummies DVD online yesterday… it was only £3.99, so not a big loss if it turns out to be awful! The exercise bike is currently staring at me from across the room but I can’t bring myself to get on it just yet haha. I seriously need to get in shape, I’m so unfit right now!
